2000-2010

So tomorrow is the last day of the first decade of the 21st century. Sounds cool. I been thinking a lot about the last ten years and this past year in particular. As many of us do around this time,we reflect on the past and look forward with great anticipation towards the future and especially the coming year. I have much to be thank for(Owen,family and my health to name a few). At the same time,I feel like a work in progress and would like to change some things that either need improvement or don't or haven't worked for some time.

I think personally in the last 10 yrs, I probably know myself better than ever. I am more confident and self-assured. I also am fairly comfortable in my own skin. I have the best relationship I have ever known with Owen and it continues to evolve and deepen in the most wonderful, secure,yet eccentric way. And we decide the rules that work for us. No one else.

My spiritual life has also evolved in a really wonderful,non-judgemental way. I take what I need and leave the rest.

I love my extended family dearly. My brothers and sisters and Mom have truly become close. I also had an opportunity this weekend to see many of my cousins and Aunts and Uncles at a party. I spent a good part of my life avoiding them because I was afraid that if they knew the real me, they would reject me. Nothing could be farther from the truth and it such a pleasure seeing all of them. What I finally realized is that I have a place in that family and I need to claim it. And I have.

I have also had to let go of some relationships that just don't work anymore. Sad,but necessary.

2009 was a challenge. I will not be sorry to see it go. I never worked harder in my life and still made less money than the year before. BUT, I have a job,health ins,and a mortgage that is current. And I have the greatest family and friends in the world. You can't really ask for more than that. For myself,resolutions don't really work for me. But I would like to see happen in continued evolving as a person and hopefully be kinder,more thoughtful and not so hard on myself. Oh and maybe if I lost 20 lbs. LOL. Here's to 2010.